So why is heaven and who goes there the big issue in Maise’s life? Well we lost our Beta Bo. He was a good fish. We bought him for Maise when she was around 1 and it was her fish to take care of and her 1st responsibility. She would say hi to him and ask to sit on the counter top so she could get even closer to him daily.
We found him under his car in the morning. When reflecting back both Joe and I thought he seemed a little drifty and off the night before. But we were rushing around that morning and had a lot going on so we held out to tell her at night. Is 3 the right age for the heaven talk? It sat heavy but we decided to tell Maise what happened and have a little salute to him before hitting the porcelain highway. I was hoping for an outcome like in Poltergeist; when the girls buries her fish and asks for a bird. But that was not the case.
At first she took it ok but we pushed to make sure she really understood. That is when she started crying and telling us she wanted Bo back…she wanted her blue fish back. She was so sad. She wrapped her arms around Joe and cried into his shoulder. She was so emotional and beautiful at the same time. She really is such a gentle soul. Sweet Little Maise. That night we sat up for awhile and Maise kept asking about who and what go to heaven…”kevin” is actually what she was saying that night but I was not about to correct her.A few days past and we got her a few more fish; 1 Beta and 3 goldfish. A few weeks later we now have 1 gold fish and 1 Beta named Nemo and Bo (depending on which kid you ask). Black Fish and Nemo you were an awesome pets while you lasted. And now we have expanded the family by 1 more. Black Bird our new parakeet came home to live with us last night. Black Bird has been his name since daddy told Maise she could have one and she could not be more pleased. He is green with some blue feathers. She ran up to the door last night yelling “Daddy we got an angry bird! We got an angry bird”!
It has been about a month since the “tragedy”. She still asks about animals and people and if they can go to heaven. Now at least she is being silly and will trick you and say “Do cars go to heaven”?, and we laugh and say silly no.
So wild. I never expected to have such a heavy talk with my girl already. Scary how many MANY more we are going have. But got 1 out of the way.